My greatest healer : Time

Time. 

I don’t know why I’m so afraid of you and when it all started. 

The constant ticking, wired and bound.

My heart beats louder and louder like a mad conductor’s grand finale. 

I hate the feeling in the pit of my stomach when I only have seconds left to submit an assignment. 

I hate how you make me feel old. 

I hate how you’re a social construct.

I hate how elegant my grandmother makes you sound through her dreamy poetry. 

I hate how you make me feel dumb. 

I hate how weak you make me feel every waking hour because I don’t think there’s enough. 

I hate how beautiful you are when I’m flooded with oxytocin and never want it to end. 

I hate how you stop. 

I hate how you leave me starving for more. 

I hate how you make me feel so small. 

I hate how you find a way to escape me when I need you the most. 

I hate how you delude me from seeing my own strength. 

I hate how you make pain feel like an eternity. 

I love you because you’re here to see my evolution and growth. 

I love you because you’re able to believe in me.

I love you because you’ve shown me how strong I can be. 

I love you because you’re indifferent. 

I love you because you’re all I have. 

I love you for seeing something in me, what I couldn’t see myself.

I love you for loving me unconditionally.

I love you because you give me a second chance when I fuck up. 

I love you because you’re my greatest healer.